A new start, a new beginning, a new year! We are now in the year 2005! How quickly 2004 has passed and now i'm sec FOUR??!!! Yes, I am and hopefully pple dun sart asking me what i'm gonna be doing the next 3 mths cos i haven't done my O's and so next 3 mths i'm still in school. I went to school today, was kidna relaxed cos there were no lessons, we had a tour of our holding school(or as my principle puts it.. "Cadesh"). The lamest thing was having to go ard the school and stopping at stations to do obstacles. Hello?Are we having sec 1 orientation or something??!!! Total waste of time..no offence

2004 has been a power-packed yr for me, filled with so many school activites. PL musical, Handbells performance, being in the committee for youth camp..to name a few. Somehow, having so many committments in school and in church led me to lose focus in who I was doing all this for. Studies came in, i got so worked up with myself for not being to excel in it, probably not up to my expectations. It took over my time supposed to be spent going to JG services. I reflected back sometimes and thought: What's the point of going to JG when actually wat i wanna do there is catch up with friends? And hence, I thought that jus going for the sunday service would be fine.

Nope, it wasn't fine. I felt so alone although there were my best friends (Rach, pris, RUTH!! you guys rawk..). It was probably something i had hardly experienced & something that nobody guessed would happen to me. Well, it did. Everyone was moving on, and i felt like a fool being left behind. People said that I changed, i no longer seemed as "siao" as I was in sec 1. But, everyone hsa to grow up rite??heh

The change came when i went to Melbourne and God redirected my life. He opened me mind to so many new things that I never knew I was able to do. (Of course it's not like suddenly being able to play the drums or something when i wake up la...)It's kinda difficult to explain it this way, but once u get that touch from God, nothing will ever want to make you turn back.

I'm not looking back to what disappointments I had in 2004. I'm gonna look 4 ward to a brand new yr! Just thought of my new-yr resolutions:

1)Go to JG service regularly UNLESS i'm very very busy
2)Wake up on sunday to go for 8.32 service
3)Read my bible pray everyday..lalala
4)Stop asking pple if I'm fat, i'll jus pretend i'm fine with my size
5)Stay healthy and not put on any weight(I'll try)
6)Not to be too sensitive to what others say about me
7)Stop picking fights with everyone ard me
8)Be more xi wen(lady-like??)and smile more
9)Concentrate on my studies
10)Keep my mouth shut when nobody wants me to use it
11)Obey my parents and respect my leaders
12)Stop hoping for what i know will never come true.
13)Be a good role model to the younger ones in JG

Yup, that's all~

[ danced all nite ]
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