Another week has come to an end. Aiya, super fast can. Why do i say the week has come to an end? That's becos we're having sport's day tmr, and like every other year, excluding last yr, i will sit at the grandstand, and stone, occasionally standing up to cheer with others. At least there's gonna be something to look to tmr.=)


We're gonna have rehearsels at SINGPORE CONFERENCE HALL!yay yay!Come on, that place just rocks with beautiful memories!yep, hafta practice quite a few things here and there. Like carrying the tables, cushions and bells in, walking in and out with our "heels".BUT!MR FONG IS NOT COMING!!!!WHy why why does he hafta fly off to somewhere when we're gonne have rehearsel!!SADDED!So we're left with our teachers, i'm sure they'll do....fine. Hahaha!


This week has been tiring. very tiring actually. My eyes are scary with eye-bags, and i look like a vampire..Heh.


Tuesday's SYF practice was good good!Although we didn't quite start off well and MR FONG was kinda disgusted by the way we played. =( U know wat i realised what we handbell gals need?We need the CHALLENGE. When he told us that RGS was gonna be playing jazz song too, and their bass line was nearly the same as ours, all of us were like"we better buck up!! cannot lose to them!" So after he talked for ultra long, he took special notice of our facial expressions, movements and dynamics of the song. Haha, he even pointed out that wanyi was the only one moving to the rhythem, and she left a "huh" look on her face..-_-" haha, anyways.. I MALUED MYSELF CAN! and ms goh was there too..Haiyas, arranged my bells wrongly and couldn't coordinate my hands to switch immediately, so the song had to stop. ARGHHH!Chinese song went pretty well. Although sometimes i get pretty bored, and my arms get tired. Haha..


OOhhh..did u all read RACHEL TAN'S blog?Hahaha..so egoistic. Anyway, I LOVE YOU TOO! It's not easy to know a friend for such a long time, and not remain jus as "hi-bye" friends, but having someone you treasure and love!Can you imagine, 10 yrs down the road, we'll be like be 20+, and still we can say "we've been best friends since we were born". OF course she was born first and alll....whatever. Today during CME, we were supposed to write about someone who inspired us. I wanted to write LEE KUAN YEW. hAhaha, but i changeed it to MY BEST FRIEND. Haha, not that you really INSPIRE me, but to a certain extent i guess you do.=)


Gotta go do some reasearch and stuff. Shall update another time!

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edna and i at huiling & terence's wedding dinner =)

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Wednesday, March 30, 2005

Dun worry, that's not me. Haha, MY NIECE! she's so adorable!!!

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yay yay! 

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Saturday, March 26, 2005

Damn, thought i could get a new phone. But, i guess the prices were too high. Whatever. I hate it when i'm given false hopes and end up with nothing.


Going to PS tonight to get some stuff. Just dun have the mood to do so now. yuck.

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Thursday, March 24, 2005

School term has started, and guess what..one week has gone past.so basically my week was something like this.

Monday
went to sch, woke up later then usual and had to rush abit. Just couldn't sleep the night b4, kept thinking of what would happen this term and how i was going to cope with everything going on. Anyways, wenta school, slept during assembly.Day passed kinda slowly and had to go to tkgs for music after that. Some jerk jus had to msg jus to tell me he was not going for lesson, like it was any of my business. Whatever.Lesson was okay, went thru the witch's dance and another part of our setwork. So freaked out by it can.


Reached home, had a quick dinner then went to do e-math. Madness, i think my brain abit haywired la.I was trying out 10yr series, the questions with the "*" and after i did all those and tried doing the non-"*", i couldn't do them. Decided to sleep.


Tuesday
we had syf practice after school. Mr Fong was wearing all white, who knows why. Annabel and i were happily recording the 2 songs part by part with our mp3. Mel wasn't there for prac cos she was having some throat infection soi had to take her bells too, my hands nearly dropped out. Super tiring.Mr fong was talking to us about PASSION: what our passion is, how we make use of this passion, how we show it to others.


Wednesday
Nothing much happened.


It's thursday.Holiday tmr=no school=revision. Yep, i guess it's gonna be this way. We're gonna be tested on sec 2 chinese in 2 weeks time, or isit nxt week?How am i supposed to remember and cover the whole a & b book in time!God bless me. I seriously dunno man.

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Sunday, March 20, 2005

Yesterday's concert was grt!Ultra packed man..could literally smell everyone else's sweat. I was sitting in a very awkward position, with nowhere to put my back.Shawn super poor thing, kana pushed behind by this gal who complained she didn't have any space..oh Well..


My legs are weak, after so much jumping yesterday, they are like having cramps or something. hahaha..Anyway, awesome presence of God was there in our midst, and i think there was quite a no. of re-dedications and salvations. AMEN!After the concert, we went to get autographs, and took photos with a few of the band-members. Yeah..It was already like nearly 1045pm when we finished all the stuff.Headed down to Cheers to get drink, then met jon Chen there, so we followed him to where his church youths were. Hahaha, so fun talking to them, there was a feel of familiarity, as though we knew each other for very long time. Haha, from standing up talking, suddenly we decided to sit down, then talked about the weirdest things.Haha..gotta know Joel and "Pokhin".No idea how to spell the other guys name.Haha, ele was screaming into joel's ears when mike webber was doing the drum solo.Pity him..Hehe


Wished we could talk longer with them, but it was already 11.20 i think. So we had to go off.. SADDED!Hahaha, really fun pple!


Apparently ele has their numbers cos she asked jon chen, but she doesn't wanna give me. Keep all the guys to herself.Fine lor..Anyways, we took a cab home with Pris. Was so tired, fell asleep immediately when i reached home (i bathed okay!!)


Church was grt today!Gilbert lead an awesome time of p&w.YEAH!Was dancing for 10.30 service, so went up halfway thru the sermon.Man, huiling suddenly fell sick so she wasn't dancing, left me and irene. I GABRA all my steps can..Argh, especially the first song.SIANZZ! Probably gonna be my last time dancing, not really confirmed anyway.


School's gonna start tmr. Mad rush for 8 weeks b4 mid-yrs and chinese O's. I need YOUR strength to carry on Lord!!

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Friday, March 18, 2005

Today's performance went fine..i guess. I made a freaking obvious mistake by accidentally hitting the bell with e mallet.Argh, it's retarded. We had the Yorkshire Brass Band that came all the way down from UK!They're superb!!very very very impressive i must say. We had the chance to talk to them during lunch and answer their questions about the bells and chimes. Was talking to a few of them about the chimes, then we started playing "twinkle twinkle little star" with the chimes. Man..they're good, pick up the stuff very fast. *Rounds of APPLAUSE!


Anyway, i thought the conductor was the best looking, even though he was kinda old. There was this quite young guy who had a moustache and beard, so qian ru and a few others kept saying he looked like jesus. Right, jus becos the portraits of Jesus in school are like that. Hahaha..


Mr Fong said we played very well today, think he didn't hear the mistake then. Haha. Rest of the music grps were fine lah.Haha no comments actually. HAhahaha! The girls insisted we had extra practice after the whole mini-performance, but i was kinda reluctant. Was quite crap, played for half an hr,then i made everyone pack up and go home. Pls la, everyone was like becoming so grumpy (me) and it was so obvious that everyone was tired. Sometimes, we just hafta know our limits la. Kinda pissed with some stuff that happened during that short practice, could kill somone with my mallets u know. ARGH!


I feel like jus drifting away one day
Going to a place where i'll stay forever
no worries, no unhappiness
But i guess it's here
That God intends to mould us
Preparing us for eternity

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Thursday, March 17, 2005

YAY! I'm going for synergize concerttt..Whee~~ pris helped me buy the tics for sat night, cos they were like gonna be sold out or something.Hahaha!THANKS, I LOVE U GAL!So, sat would be an ultra long day for me. Again...


Gonna go down to church later, for dance practice. Think it's gonna be my last time dancing, gonna take a break from everything.Hopefully i'll still remember the steps n all, sengkang pple dancing tonight! Haahaha.Okay,, sengkang rocks..doesn't it?


People call me anti-social. Am i?Not too sure about that. Maybe it's the "look" on my face. Hahahaha..Jus realized there's only joy and vincent playing keyboard for JG..hehehe! Feel so bad, but do i have a choice? No.


SYF mini performance tmr!!!CAN'T WAIT! wanyi and i are so looking forward to go to SCH for our rehearsel cos there's mr quek there!!! Or as wanyi puts it, "quek quek" HAHA! SHe's mad..not me. Mrs Wong videod us on wed's prac. HELLO??!!! she zoomed into my face lar! for who know's wat reason man..Disgusting.


I went back to my blogdrive acc and read thru a few of my entries.SIGH! all the situations i've gone through..everything passes so fast, and i actually wrote this 5 part "poem" thing. It'a quite mean actually, wasn't really directing at anyone. But, oh well, feelings lah.


Wanted to post that "poem" again, but i think blogspot doesn't support chinese characters or something. Gtg now.. Found this at jeanette's blog, think she wrote it herself. Nice:)


LOVE?What is LOVE?
That makes us crazy
With thoughts of idolatry, shameless fantasy?


What is LOVE?
That makes us nutsAnd makes us
tremble and have no guts?


Perhaps God on us has placed a hex,
So all will fall for the fairer sex.
And quote lines from long LOVE poems,
Some more dreadful than a dead rat's rectum.


Oh! How I hate it when some friends go,
"Help! I like this girl, I adore her so!"
What do they want, for me to drool?
Drool I not, for all who LOVE are fools.


Just some lines from those very LOVE sonnets,
Ring in my mind like a bee in my bonnet.
"Open my eyes, for I am blinded by you.
"Ooh! My hair is standing, don't you feel it too."


I knew my LOVE was true, the moment I laid eyes on
you."


Heavens above!
Don't they make you sick and blue?
Well, call me skeptic,
call me cynical,
What these people need are 800-degree spectacles.


Hold a second,
I know what you think,
I read your thoughts faster than you blink.
You imagine I'm LOVE-hater;
you feel I'm gay.
Wrong! Though gay only when I write down what I have to say.


LOVE is untrue, LOVE is false,
LOVE as unlikely as Bach composing a waltz.
Yet you would very likely detect,
Most folks consider me incorrect.


For when they meet one they find so fair,
They most often forget that you are there.
They ignore your well-intentioned advice,
Your voice, they suddenly find not so nice.


Strangely though, they are lost for words,
When wanting to talk about the bees and birds.
To me they say, "I LOVE her, why?"
To the girl they say, "Er...er...bye!"


So it makes me wonder when it starts,
The exact moment when they lost their hearts.
Was it when they first saw,
Or sometime later, sometime more?


Whatever when, the result is always the same,
Like full-moon dogs they go insane.
Of those feelings, what is there to gain?
Isn't it nothing more than an irritating bane?


Once again, who am I to judge,
When it comes to matters of their stolen hearts.
But don't you sometimes find LOVE a hazard,
Much like a sauna in a barren desert.


Lost appetites, lack of sleep,
Well, you sow, that's what you reap.
And suddenly, we're all hopeless romantics.
OK, not really, just incurable lunatics.


In our minds float Marianne, Audrey, Sara, Michelle
Lo, behold, your life has become a living hell.
Wait a minute! I
know you're cursing,"What do you know, you've never felt anything!"


Well, you know what, thank God I haven't,
For I'm still residing in my seventh heaven.
Cause from my friends I know,
Being in LOVE is worse than eating dirty snow.


But that's life, isn't it, that we all have a soft spot,
Which needs a feminine presence to turn it hot.
Our raging hormones like orange flames,
With lustful desires we cannot tame.


Oh! Lamentable day when LOVE turns mental,
(For it's more fearful than a trip to the dentals)
When it makes us send text messages at 3 in the morning.
Romantic? When the other is soundly snoring?


Even sadder is when your LOVE ignores,
And your heart drops like a golfer shouting, "FORE!"
Inside you feel you need the gents,you say, "It's alright, let's just be friends."


So why LOVE when it's obviously not worthwhile,
Certainly less useful than a ceramic tile.
But if you must, remember this,
Never sell your soul for just one kiss.


Instead, give it to her who can make it last,
Even when your teeth begin to rust.
For you only know that you have succeeded,
When you begin to feel really needed.


But that's unlikely, it'll hardly happen,
Just pray that when you're rejected you don't feel too saddened.


My point is, LOVE is fake; it's all pretence,
Oops! I'd better stop; I see your anger is intense.


My only wish is that, when one day you by LOVE are bitten,
You will remember the nonsense that I've just written.
Perhaps it will brighten up your day,
When all things seen so gloomy and gray.


What is LOVE;
That makes us gamble,
To show our last hand, for the plain impossible.


What is LOVE;
That makes us have,
Regrets aplenty, with so much left.


Yup, that's what she or whoever wrote. It's up to you to decide on what you wanna believe :)

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at 5:23 pm

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

Yesterday's workout was grreeaaattt!Haven't perspired so much for quite a period of time liaos. Met Huiling and we went to the gym together. The security guard at the gym was so lame.

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Monday, March 14, 2005

I'm off to the gym!Yep, me going to the gym. Can u believe it..haven't been there since who knows. And the worst part:the gym is jus downstairs in the next block. Haha i shall swim tmr, make full use of my house's function. How bout the bbq pit? Think i'll go book it for my b'day haha.


Meeting Huiling soon to go workout, then i think she booked the badminton court.Yays.Gwen and bobby coming?!Okay, i'm so dead.Hehe, kidding


Germz:i'm still thinking bout what i saw yesterday, totally gives me the creeps.


Had handbells this morning. Was kinda sucky cos i kept playing the wrong notes, and was probably the only one who couldn't remember the whole sequence. Mr fong says i have to move more. HOW??I try to..but it's so weird. And all of us were perspiring like cows in the hall, cos we couldn't switch on the fan..too noisy.Haha, can feel the sweat dripping sia. It was fun. We finally spoke to ms Goh bought the issue of our instructors, feel so at ease now. Hehe..and she gave me a lift out to the main road in her CAR!Hahaha..save me the trouble of walking under the stoopid blazing sun. Maybe i'll go tanning tmr..Hopefully my skin would be able to absorb the sunlight or something.


Muahahaha..gym!here i come....

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Sunday, March 13, 2005

This is jus gonna be another retarded entry that wouldn't make sense to anything.


Went to church today, couldn't wake up to follow my dad's car since they had to go early for musician prac and i wasn't scheduled. So i woke up like 15 mins after they left. Haha, my mum was with me so we decided to take the mrt and she thought it was still 7.45am when we left when in actual fact it was aready 8 and service starts at 8.30.So i "forced" her to pay for the cab that we took to church from farrer park, instead of walking. Haha, reached there on time and went to sit with irene and eugene. Pst Soon Teck was kinda funny today, with his baby gadgets and all.


we had x'pressoul after that, had a time of sharing then wenta makan. Ate abit, then went back to church to slack my time away while waiting for the gals at 10.30 service. Went to macs and germz gave me a nickname.. prata.Don't bother to know why la. Haha..


saw SOME stuff going on in church and i think i shd have jus gone home and not keep looking. The more i watched, the worst it got. Yuck.


Anyway, went to meet the handbells exco after that for a meeting. Was so crap, my goodness. i think the guys at the table the other side thought we were mad cos we were laughing like nobody's business..Ssshhh!Went to take photos again, think it's our third time or something. Haha, i looked so WEIRD in the photos. No fairr.haha


So now i'm back, promising myself that i'll nv fall for a guy again...

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Saturday, March 12, 2005

WHAOOO! No more piano lessons for mee!Heh, took my theory exam today at AEC building, and pearly and i were in the same class!Haha, what coincidence.So we talked for a while, then i went back to my sit to read thru my very very pathetic notes that i wrote the night b4.Heh.. Anyway, it's over!Oh well, i'll b missing piano lessons but at least i wun hafta spend time travelling up and down.


Today was an ultra long day for me. Bet all the students would be slacking away their sat, but i was chiong all the way.Let me elaborate, haha. Woke up at 7.15AM, dad drove me to amath tuition at amk the 2 hrs later he picked me up and we went to the sistic outlet at j8. Collected the Disney on ice tics for ele and ivan, then i bought my tickets for twelfth night. Can't wait..went home to bathe,ate lunch(indian rojak!so not me...)then got ready to go for exam. Reached raffles at ard 1.40pm, so went to class jus on time since the exam started at 2pm.Sat in the freaking cold room for 2.5 hrs until i finished the whole paper, then rushed down to bugis for tuition. was feeling super sleepy but managed to pass thru without falling asleep.Hehe, so after that i came home.


Crap, it's been such a LONG day. my brother's sitting beside me drawing some pictures of planes, some that he invented himself.Haha, quite interesting


Who likes my new skin!Haha, i think it's rather cute, dunch ya thnk so?& i adjusted some of the template my self, so proud of mahself! Hehe


P.s What isit like to fall in love? FYI, this question has NOTHING to do with me. HAHA!

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Thursday, March 10, 2005

I'm back.


Simulcast @ the Legends was greeaaatt. Worship was AWESOME. yeahh, 8.32 combined with 10.30 service. WHOOO~power. With eugene on the bass, kai on the drums GILBERT on eletrico guitar ,samuel and ivan on the acoustic,unty ju as worship leader. SWEETTT! All honour and praise to God man, for allowing everything to go so smoothly even though we only had a short time to practive. i think sunday was the first time we had a combine apart from the thanksgiving service we had last yr.

Some PEOPLE kept disturbing while i was on stage playing keyboard la..*hint hint* HAHA, made me wanna laugh out loud while playing. but of course i didn't, not that retarded. *Germz, point and rub ur nose somemore la, scully ur whole nose drop out!HEHEHE

Was sitting with my homecell when the video was running cos we were supposed to sit with the grp we were gonna join for the PDL campaign. Anyway, i think i could concentrate better sitting there, with adults everywhere. ;) God touched me so much just thru this video, what more can i expect when we start on the series.

We had like 5 mins to meet up with our grp, then i headed out of the ballroom to find da jgians. My heels were killing me, totally regret wearing high heels sia and worse, we went to PS after that. Pengz, my legs were like "PLS SIT DOWN AND LET ME REST!"Crapssss. Talked for like nearly 1/2 an hr or more b4 we decided to go down to PS to have lunch. Went to Long John makan, i'm getting sick of that.Heh.Seems like everytime i go out with da JGians, the only thing we eat is long john.wait, not true. i went to pasta mania on sat. Okay RUBBISH!

We wenta take pics together after lunch.Was wat lemuel and rachel owed me, since the shop was so crowded on sat when we were at cine (err, were we at cine? i can't rem!)Anyway, we took retarded photos( and i mean really retarded), i mean, normal pple like us dun read jap words! So whenever we say "3..2.." we'd be like "faster faster!! it's gonna shooott!" Yeah wateverrrrr. Photos turned out fine, except i chose one WRONG photo and rach wasn't in it. SADDEDDDD!Oh well, the rest were fine la. love the one with the PDL word (agree?) I'm talking to myself again.

okay one more day to the end of term 1. WOW. time is passing WAY TOO FASTTT!!!

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Thursday, March 03, 2005

A story was told thru my teacher's powerpoint today. I found it rather interesting, and i'l try to tell the story by typing it out.

The Carrot, The Egg and the COFFEE BEANS!

Picture 3 pots of boiling water.

In the first pot of boiling water, you put in a piece of carrot. In the 2nd pot of water, you put in an egg. Finally, in the 3rd pot, you put in coffee beans which have been "grinded" into a powdery substance.

Leave them to boil for 20 mins.

When you take the 3 items out, you notice that,
1)the carrot has become softer
2)the eggs have hardened
3)lovely aroma of coffee

What am i trying to say?
Take the boiling water as troubles and difficulties in our lives.

When we are put thru these difficulties in lives, do we become like the carrot? We become weaker as we are pulled down by these troubles.

Or do become like the egg? Hardened and unfeeling. Unable to handle our difficulties, we feel that the whole world owes us something. We turn a cold heart to everything that comes our way.

how bout the coffee beans?Are we able to change the situation jus as the powdery coffee beans turned the boiling water to coffee.

What do you want to be?
Everyone's natural reaction would definitely be the coffee beans. Obviously.

~End of story~

I was thinking about this the whole afternoon.What have i become after going thru all these ups and downs. Or rather, what will i become?Sometimes i wonder to myself. I'm definitely not a weak person,so that leaves becoming an unfeeling person. Am i? or would i be able to change the situation.

Enough of serious talk.
Was having PE lesson today, and we were playing frisbee. And guess wat. Yar, kana hit by that hard plastic thing!*OUCH!*And dun ask me why my mouth was open la, so it hit my lip and teeth. Luckily it didn't drop out or anything. Heh.There's a mark there cos part of skin of my lip came out. Haha..gross.but it looks fine, lucky for me.

Theory exam in a week's time. Why does everything have to take place so fast? It's scary. I cant help but stop to think: What if i fell asleep and the next thing i know, it's the O's. Mad.Yar.

Syf practices are great. Always looking forward to them with the SYF gals and MR FONG! Yeah man, music camp is coming up soon. Cool man!I hope i'll get to stick with my bass bells for 2nd song. Hehe

Simulcast at the Legends is this Sunday. Really looking 4ward to it. This time I mus commit to this 40 days . Last yr, i never got the chance to watch a single episode of Rick Warren. Gonna be joining my homecell this yr. Gonna be a challenge for me to be sitting with adults man, thank God there's shuli and irene. Hehe

Well, i guess that's all for now.

Someone's Watching Over Me by Hilary Duff
I found myself today
Oh, I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
Voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is you're not here to stay
But you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonight

So I won't give up
No, I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark
I'll still believe Someone's watching over me

It doesn't matter what people say
It doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself
And you'll find how
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself
And follow your heart

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